Monday, January 2, 2012


Somewhere around 251.
That's how many books I want to read.
Books I figure will help me. challenge me. inspire me. change me. affirm me. 

So many and yet so little.
So little time. quiet. inclination. energy. want-to.

And I beat...beat...beat the drum that I should.
Should read. better myself. equip myself. up the ante.

I wear disappointment and think I'm missing out.
I take on guilt believing I'm not doing all I should.
Because, after all, there are books. good books.  
Ready to be read. Ready to be devoured.
And I am literarily starving it seems.

And then, sometimes, it occurs to me.
I'm intelligent. I'm prayerful (well, sometimes). 
And I have read other books at other times and learned a thing or two.
And so, maybe just maybe, I know a little more than I think I do.

Maybe those parenting books I want to read will simply tell me what I already know but don't consistently practice. Maybe those discipleship books will remind me of spiritual disciplines I've known and forsaken. Maybe those marriage books will encourage me to become re-acquainted with humility instead of fighting for my own way.


And maybe, when life allows, and the stars align or I just sit myself down and crack a binding, I will find words of wisdom waiting. 

Until then, I will try to remember that which I know to be true. 
I will be thankful there are others who make time to write things I want to read. 
I will keep adding to my list of books I want to read.
And I will try to not feel guilty that the list keeps growing.

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